June is coming

Wow... Time flies! It is almost the end of May. Which means we have come to the half way mark of 2012. Have you achieve any pointers from your resolution? 

I don't think I even set one for 2012. I guess December is always my busiest month of the year especially last year. Usually December is a month for church camp, Christmas & thanksgiving, but in 2011 I skipped all this to attend my friend's wedding in Cambodia. It was a eye opener & a good culture exchange. Looking back, I think i should start some post on the places I visited to share my experiences & the things I learn from each trip. I love traveling because it allow me to understand the cultures and appreciate Singapore better.

Fruit basket to bless the newly wed

Back track. Since I have not set any resolution for 2012, let me set one for the remaining months. Recently, this phase keep appearing "To be a better person" & this strike something in me. I guess for the longest time I think I am doing fine in term of my attitude. I don't get into any arguments, I am easy going, accommodating, patient & kind with words towards people. But I am hard on myself in term of performance. I was told that I am a very performance-driven person & rather a perfectionist. But there is something about me that I not good enough, I'm not daring enough, not bold enough to fulfill the dream I always wanted. I may be kind & gracious to others that are mean to me but inside me i keep complaining. I believe all these aren't the most positive way to handle things. I have not come out with way to tackle this issue but I will soon. I guess I have to set a boundary & limit in order not to allow people to take advantage of me but at the same time handle it with graciousness. Sound hard, indeed it is. How? I guess I have to pray hard for this. 

How this got to do with being a better person you may ask. But I guess I have to first love myself truly (I mean truly not selfishly) first in order to spread the excess to the people around me. I have to be truly myself so that those around me can feel my sincerity I guess. 

Probably I will take this last week of May to review & jot down the things that I really want to achieve & how to be a better person. Life has be monotonous; doing the things that I do not enjoy most everyday with the mental torture I get. The only things that keep me going is attending my training, where I get to meet a group of fun people. I intention there is to encourage this youngsters but in return I think I get more from them. I so motivated by their enthusiasm in running, which i think the flame in me has almost gone (noting that I have been running for almost 15 years but stop competing for awhile because of some reasons). Love the vibe they have. "Giving is a gift itself"