100days Challenge - Gives Thank - Day 10

At the point of breaking.

With all the disappointments that I'm going through, I think I am reaching to a breaking point.
I don't remember when I heard this phrase "God will never give you more than you can handle,” it comforting to know that in the process of moulding, God will make sure that I will be just fine.

But at this very moment, I just feel that I can no longer handle anything.
"An athlete? Endurance?" These are things that people try to console me, but having all the series of bad life experiences marched to you over the years, how long could you handle if you were me? Don't try to judge me. Everyone has their down time and this is just the lowest point of my life.

And I have reached a point where I start to question where is God.

And I guess, God knows. He knows I'm breaking.

He sends me a song, Laura Story - Blessing.

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

But God where are you when you hear each of my spoken need?

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise? God, this will takes great faith and understanding to say this. Please God, help me to see if I'm blind.

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we have faith to believe

Faith! God suddenly questioned me with His gentle strong voice "Where is your faith?!, the simple faith that allows you to see the wonderous things I have created before your eyes?" "Do not not lose faith my child."

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

"What if trials of this life are the reason for me to be closer to you my child?"

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

  
"When it's unbearable anymore and no friends to run to, remember, you have a Father that long to hear your troubles. So do not stop communicating with me"


He knows! He knows I'm losing it all, yet He is still patient enough to love me though I doubted. A love that I cannot comprehend. What a wonderful God!